Perambulation

Excerpt from a transcribed conversation with self while moving.   09.09.19 11:05 N 52˚ 33’ 11.693” E 13˚ 22’ 36.891” 

Here.  Arrival.  Here.  Here is a closed system.  Here is a location.  Here is definitively different from there.  Here can be defined by what it is not. Not far away. Not in the past.  Not in the future.  Here.  Here can be shown with coordinates.  Here.  It can be shown with time.  Here.  Meaning more than coordinates.  Meaning more than a moment.  Because here indicates presence.  Here could be shelter.  Here could be food.  Here might be what you find or what you need.  Here includes you.  Here indicates you have arrived.  Here is   no   longer   there.

Arrival.  Arrival is a point in space with meaning.  Arrival is an intentional location.  You are aware you have arrived when you can say, “I am here.” Here.  Begin.  Arrival is not just here.  Arrival indicates now.  You cannot arrive at a place unless you intend to be there.  You cannot arrive unless you arrive early, late, or on time.  You have arrived.  Your destination becomes a point of arrival.  Here.  You have arrived when your presence, your awareness, enters a point in space.  At that point and that moment, space becomes place.  Place has meaning because you define it through your presence.  That point in space is here.  Arrival.  Arrival is a stopping.  Arrival is an end.  Arrival always involves here.  Always.  

Because here is a point in space, because here is a point with meaning, always here becomes place.  Here is where intention leads.  A point of arrival.  So here is linked to time.  Here is the endpoint of a journey.  Here is defined space.  Here is a closed system.  And here is fleeting.  Here cannot stay.  When you step away from here, your understanding of here shifts.  

Here. There.  Not here.

The difference between here and there: between here and not here is not here always represents a loss.  Not here is never present.  Not here is unattainable.  It’s unreachable, forever behind you, and forever in front.  

You can never say, “I am not here”, but if you know where it is that you are not, you will always know you are here, that you have arrived.  Here is the present tense.  Here is a moment in time, always now.  

A walking score sends you into the landscape.  A walking score prejudges distance.  A walking score determines your journey, your expedition, your there.  But a walking score relies on you to recognize when you are here, when you have arrived.  It is your endpoint that has meaning and your endpoint that you carry at all times.  Your sense of here, your sense of now, your sense of a different closed system. 

Arrival.  Here.  Begin.